Filling my day and emptying my head

Read my thoughts, and about my day(s). I make no guarantees, but I may have interesting things to share or I may bore you to tears. Its a gamble :-) Sit back and Enjoy, I hope. Comments welcome and appreciated.

Thursday, November 30, 2006

Today I saw the cutest thing.
A little old lady driving a two toned VWBeetle. It was adorable. Prob the only thing that would have made it Uber cute would have been a vanity plate of some kind. But anyway it made me smile, which this week has not been easy.

Its not that I have been having a bad week. Its just been a blah week. Hence the lack of posts.

I mean things are happening around me... but nothing specifically to me..

Like we have mold/water problem in our basement. There were mushrooms growing down there, (not the good kinds) and mold, and water. So we had to get it fixed.
Turns out.. Poisonous. Not to bad, but not good to breathe either.
So we had some contractors come and basically tear up our nice basement. [I had some good parties there in my day].

Then, the electricity, only in my room and the computer room goes crazy. Certain outlets and light switches work at certain times. So that makes for a fun time as well.

Bored yet?

Well if not this should give you a great cat nap. I have what should be the last dress fitting tonight with Gay Ray.. pray for me and my ugly purple dress.
Oh yeah.. I know some of the links aren’t working.. I am working on that, but going into the template is like brain surgery. I have to read up on it and then work in slow deliberate movements so as not to disturb anything else…

Sunday, November 26, 2006

Sloppy Seconds and the Pickle Jar

I spent the weekend in the Wood. With the girls. It was great. We laughed, we talked it was all GREAT!

So we have been friends for almost 13 years. It’s amazing. We have been through a lot and a shared so much, including guys.

So of course we were chatting about men and Nacho and I were discussing this one guy that we both dated. I went out with him first, a one date wonder for me, and she went out with him a few times. He really liked her and treated her much better than he treated me. So I told her I ‘loosened the jar” for her. And she understood what I meant!!!
That’s what I mean about friends.

I mean when Marylou says Skatieight, and no one knows what it means, time for some new friends! (You know I love you!)

Anywayz, sat night we went to see Bobby, and deciding on that was an event all its own. Then we went to pizza, of course. The same things we used to do in High School, we still do now.

Anyway, Josh’s parents came in.
I was sitting with my back to the doors, and Marylou goes, “Should I tell you or not tell you that Josh’s parents just walked in” No tell me, this is good info. Josh and I have not seen each other since the break up, but I don’t think it will be weird. We were friends before and we will be friends afterward. I am sure I will be seeing him at some point soon bc Benj got engaged!!!!!
So the parents walk in, and don’t even want to say hi to Marylou, because she is sitting with me, can you believe it? Well she says hi, I turn around and I say hi. I get a stilted hello from the dad, and barely a nod from the mom. I can only imagine what they said to Josh when they got home. But the whole time I felt like I was getting death stares, and this was corroborated by my table mates. Of course I wanted to leave, but we were waiting for Shan, who had some drama occur while she was out walking her dog. [are you surprised? She’s one of my closest friends]

I didn’t want to write this at first, because he reads the blog, but I also cant keep not writing things. So I bit the bullet and took the plunge. But it wasn’t too bad. Besides its only what I felt, it could be totally off base right?

In the works is a meeting with Adam that we have been trying to set up for a while, but life keeps getting in the way, you know what I mean? Stay tuned for more info on that. [IT IS NOT A DATE, I am enjoying singledom and will continue to do so for quite some time]

Thursday, November 23, 2006

Tradition

First of all, Happy Thanksgiving to you all!!!
I Have much to be thankful for and I will be getting to it later.

Since this is a relatively new blog, there are very few traditions that it has. However last Thanksgiving, (you may have to scroll a little) I put up my whole menu and pictures. So I will do the same this year. The pictures my be a little late since I am having some technical difficulties with my camera, but you can still read what I am making..

Its also a much smaller crowd this year. Only 11! That’s like 1/3 of what we normal have… but that didn’t stop us!

Thanksgiving 2006:
Turkey, with stuffin. [DUH!]
Brisket
Chicken cutlets in a cranberry wine sauce (AKA Chicken Ruby)
Rice with green herbs, beans and of course meat chunks. (Its Persian but very tasty)
[Chicken pot pie, we are still debating this]
Acorn Squash- Sugar and Spice
Salad
Roasted root vegetables [Parsnip, turnip, carrots, mushrooms and Brussel sprouts]
Red cabbage and apple salad
Sweet potatoes and Fluff!!!!
Cranberry Sauce (from the can)
Fresh cranberry relish.
Pecan Pie
Pumpkin Pie
Apple Crumble (Served warm)
Fruit

I think as usual no one will go Hungry this year.

Thankful
Now I had to get his out… I am truly thankful this year for so much.
Of course my health and that of my family.
But then there are friends. Friends who I speak to often, see often, and those who I don’t. I had chaquita night last night and it just re-affirmed my faith in my friends, both those I see often and those I don’t.
So I am thankful for my chaquitas and my wood hood, and everyone else in between!

Happy thanksgiving, and don’t be shy to loosen that belt buckle :-)

Monday, November 20, 2006

The Dating UN-GAME

So Single people date. Apparently that’s what we are supposed to do.
Well I am not a fan.

Games are supposed to be fun. There are rules, and at then end, clear winners and losers.
Dating… not so much.
Not fun (it’s really nerve racking and frankly exhausting) that’s not to say there are no fun dates, but actual dating is far from fun.

There are no rules. And as soon as you think they are, you learn that there are NO RULES!!! Don’t even try. There aren’t any. It will just give you a headache.

Call the other person if and when you want to; speak how ever long you want to, about whatever topics you want. Where what ever you feel like, and say what’s on your mind. It doesn’t matter! Because no matter what, in the end, there are no winners and no losers!

It is the UN-GAME and I don’t want to play!

Yeah I have been spoiled. I dated one of my closest friends for a year. So that’s not real dating. None of that weird first 5 date angst. It was just a relationship, which lets face it, is why people date. To be with someone.

Before that, I was in fantasy land with a friend who never had any intention of dating me, and I hurt myself. [Look, Mom, I figured it all out without therapy!] before that bad dates, and of course Nancy. Another ‘friend’ who I dated. See, I just don’t know how to date. [lets not even get into the flirting thing]

I do not think there is actually a human on earth who likes the first two dates.
But you go through them, it’s a rite of passage.

Have I not endured enough first dates? Must I continue?

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

CONGRATS TO MY CUZ JULIA,
AND DAN (SEE HIS BLOG -->)
THEY PASSED THE NY BAR!!!!

Congrats to everyone else who passed the July 2006 exam too.

Trust me, I know the relief you feel at being able to exhale, eat and sleep like a somewhat normal person again!

Now go celebrate! You deserve it.

See you in court ;-)

I will be back to real posting soon... still recovering and gathering my thoughts...

Monday, November 06, 2006

My First Days

After less than 4 hours of sleep, which were not useful, since I was up every 20 minutes worried I would sleep through the alarm (which no matter how many times it DOESN’T happen manages to always keep me up), and thinking about things I did and did not pack. I woke up to go to Florida. Now, when I first booked this, it was a vacation for me. Time to get away and just be. Which trust me, after the month I have I had, no one begrudged me. Now seg-way to about 36 hours later and I feel like I have been slowly tortured. And I know it wont be ending.

I am in a catch 22 situation.
I came to spend time with the Grandma 100% for sure. But not ALL my time right? Well then why do I feel guilty telling her I want to be by myself? Plus the time we do spend together is the most frustrating and stressful time. I am not going to come home relaxed and I don’t know what to do about it.
Its not all her fault. I am tired and cranky and not in a good mood, and that does not put her in a good mood. Plus her pool is under construction, yeah no tanning… oh and did I mention this is old people land and she treats me like I am still 10? [that I know I cant change but it can still frustrate me to no end right]

I hope I can figure out how to fix this soon.

Anyway, details of the adventure so far.

I got to the airport, where thankfully no security mishaps occurred to or people standing in line near me. I had one checked in bag and a carry-on.

The flight was uneventful in a good way. No movie (I took AA) I was sitting in a window seat ( to Florida is really doesn’t matter to me) But I realized that I had split up a family (well not me, but you know what I mean so I offered to switch with the Dad (he was only two rows back, and an Aisle! Score!) and they were most grateful. I was then in a aisle with a nice Italian Couple and their little baby. He was adorable and well behaved the entire way. It is still up for debate in my mind if this was a couple, or simply two women traveling together. They had matching engagement rings and wedding bands, and the kid seemed equally comfortable with both of them. But one held him the whole time and the other had her Ipod on. And nothing lovey doevy occurred at all.. (Sorry guys)

We landed early! Shocker. And the airport wasn’t ready for us. Whatever that means, I mean didn’t the big white thing falling out of the sky and taxing down the runway give you a clue? It was so bad the pilot opened a window and yelled to someone on the ground to get us a gate agent so we could de-plane.

So we ended up out of the plane on time. Which is fine. Got the bags and got my car. The perks of being 25+! Its nice, but so much different than my Athena. I am getting used to him though. Yeah, its totally a guy car...

Got to grannys, upacked and then the real fun began.
We went to WALMART! Woo hoo!!!!
Then home to a nice din din and veg in front of the TV. I was wiped and went to bed at 9 and woke up at 8. And I could have slept longer but I felt bad. My bed is the pull-out couch in the living room and my g-ma was holed up in her room since to get to the kitchen you had to walk through “my room”.

We ate breakfast and then I went for a run, in 80 degree weather. I can not wait to run outside in short sleeves again tomorrow. I went looking for a beach today or boardwalk but none to be found.

Then we packed a lunch and headed out to the MALL!!! Yeah, not a fun trip. But we didn’t manage to find her a pair of shoes for the wedding, which was part of my mission here anyway. (I even snagged a pair for myself as a reward, cute little ballet flats with leopard print)

Then my grandma took me out to dinner. It was nice.

And I finally couldn’t take it anymore, so I hightailed it to the starbucks down the block, and paid for internet, so I could feel like a person.

I hope it was worth it.

No telling when I will get this opportunity again, but please comment and read, it makes me feel good.

Miss ya, but love the weather!

Sunday, November 05, 2006

Buh Bye

I goin' on Vacion.....

If the starbucks down the block from G-Ma's Condo has Wi-fi, I will be posting.. however using her dial up for bloggin is a serious no-no.

See Y'all in a week!!!

Feel free to miss me and comment!

Thursday, November 02, 2006

I cant get it out of my head

Scissor Sisters - I don't feel like dancing



I have to thank Josh for this... the XM subscription has truly opened my eyes...

Just in case you are curious here are the lyrics:

Wake up in the morning with a head like ‘what ya done?’
This used to be the life but I don’t need another one
Good luck cuttin’ nothin’, carrying on, you wear them gowns
So how come I feel so lonely when you’re up getting down?

So I play along when I hear that favourite song
I’m gonna be the one who gets it right
You better know when you’re swingin’ round the room
Look’s like magic’s solely yours tonight

But I don’t feel like dancin’
When the old Joanna plays
My heart could take a chance
But my two feet can’t find a way
You think that I could muster up a little soft, shoop devil sway
But I don’t feel like dancin’
No sir, no dancin’ today

Don’t feel like dancin’, dancin’
Even if I find nothin’ better to do
Don’t feel like dancin’, dancin’
Why’d you break down when I’m not in the mood?
Don’t feel like dancin’, dancin’
Rather be home with no one when I can’t get down with you

Cities come and cities go just like the old empires
When all you do is change your clothes and call that versatile
You got so many colours make a blind man so confused
Then why can’t I keep up when you’re the only thing I lose?

So I’ll just pretend that I know which way to bend
And I’m gonna tell the whole world that you’re mine
Just please understand, when I see you clap your hands
If you stick around I’m sure that you’ll be fine

But I don’t feel like dancin’
When the old Joanna plays
My heart could take a chance
But my two feet can’t find a way
You think that I could muster up a little soft, shoop devil sway
But I don’t feel like dancin’
No sir, no dancin’ today

Don’t feel like dancin’, dancin’
Even if i find nothin' better to do
Don’t feel like dancin’, dancin’
Why’d you break down when I’m not in the mood?
Don’t feel like dancin’, dancin’
Rather be home with no one when I can’t get down with you

You can’t make me dance around
But your two-step makes my chest pound
Just lay me down as you blow it away into the shimmer light

But I don’t feel like dancin’
When the old Joanna plays
My heart could take a chance
But my two feet can’t find a way
You think that I could muster up a little soft, shoop devil sway
But I don’t feel like dancin’
No sir, no dancin’ today

Don’t feel like dancin’, dancin’
Even if i find nothin' better to do
Don’t feel like dancin’, dancin’
Why’d you break down when I’m not in the mood?
Don’t feel like dancin’, dancin’
Rather be home with no one when I can’t get down with you